I have wanted to be uplifting on this blog....not fall into being whiny even when there were things that "bugged" me. And I have tried.
I haven't written much recently as I was trying to find the words to express what is going on.
I have been here before....
And I really hate this part...those seasons and times of upheaval and change...
but I feel it coming on....
and I struggle.
Even places of comfort are uncomfortable....
Attending a church I love this morning, with people I love and care about....for the first time in a long time I felt totally alone.....
It is not a fun place to be....it makes me want to pull the covers over my head and try to wait it out.
But I know that this is just part of the birthing of something new in my life....
its never easy or pain free....
it just is.
I didn't want to write this, to admit to feeling this way....
but I recalled that one of my favorite blogs is about her journey,
the mountain tops and the valleys...
because we all go through it in one way or another....
and sometimes it just helps to know that someone else has been there...
and survived....
and found joy again.....
and found their road home again....
Love to you all.......prayers for each of you on your journeys...... He is with you and me....
Wow! another with a hard place. We need to stick together and pray for each other. I lost my Dad 6 months ago, my Mom 4 days ago and my sister probably won't see Christmas. I praying for you to know God's presence during the next journey.
ReplyDeleteSandy....I tried to find where to email you privately and I couldn't find it. Just wanted you to know that I am praying for you...so much loss so close together knocks the wind out of you and can buckle your knees...as tough as it gets, we know who carries us through...hugs to you dear one!!!
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