Sunday, April 30, 2006

God Knows......

I am learning....slowly but surely....about obedience. And the fact that God truly does supply all of our needs. He has everything we need at His disposal....if we are willing and able to ask and accept His help.

As I wrote last night about needing balance and being out of wack in my life right now...I wrote my blog, and took some time to be still. After that I received an email about some info you will read below. Not only is the timing perfect for me...but it is at a church we have been talking about attending for our home church. We had not been there for awhile, so I was unaware of this conference....that's ok, God knew. It was like He took the time to design it just for me.
If you are in the Chattanooga area...check it out!!!!
For more info go to:

God truly is good....all the time.

2006 Women's Conference at Abba's House
May 5-6, 2006
Keynote Speakers: Judy Jacobs and Marla Cilley "FlyLady"

A committed soul…a clean kitchen…focused family time…a heart for prayer…home-cooked meals…spiritual power…an organized budget…a healthy body…

Can a woman keep all these aspects of life in order?

We all find ourselves wondering how to manage the daily responsibilities of life while pursuing the heart of God with all our heart and mind and strength. Women need spiritual power-the awareness of God that inspires change, renewal and new beginnings. But it is difficult to open your heart to God's best when the practical and emotional side of you is struggling! Do these issues sound all too familiar? Then plan to join us on May 5-6 for the "Life in Balance" Women's Conference in the Abba's House Worship Center! Our Heavenly Father knows that the spiritual, emotional, physical, and practical facets of His children are inseparable…each part influences the other. Plan now to make this weekend of godly teaching and simple guidance a priority this spring, and come expecting a blessing!

Saturday, April 29, 2006

When One of Those Days Becomes One of Those Weeks....

Do you just ever have days that you can't wait to end, because you know things will be better tomorrow? (Please insert several verses and chorus of "Tomorrow", you remember--"The sun will come out tomorrow, tomorrow. Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow...." Yeah, you remember)
But when that "really crummy day" begins to spread into an entire week....I really just want to turn off the phone, stay at home, and just hide away for awhile.
Now add in trying to explain, vent, share these feelings you are having to friends that are caught up in their own stuff and can't hear you.... Stir in friends that dismiss month long plans for a last minute decision of something else they want to do. And frankly, in hurt, the first thought becomes...clearing the slate and starting over in the friend department.
I know, I know...a bit extreme and truly unrealistic. But regardless of what the truth is about the situation...hurt is hurt. And it leaves you cautious, protective.....extremely guarded.
I hate this stuff...I hate feeling this way.
But if I take a long look at this stuff, I can see when this occurs. Any of these things happening seperately might be a bit annoying, but not enough to make me run for cover. But add in little sleep, over booked, little to no devotional time/quiet time, and wah-lah the perfect recipe for alienating yourself from the people that care about you and love you.
And isn't it funny that this is easy to see in someone else....but when you are in the middle of it--you are just so busy you don't even see it coming.
Just a few weeks ago, I was concerned about a friend that was going through marital problems and pulled away from everyone to stay at home. What I told her was that it is a favorite tool of seperate us out from those that love us, that we can draw strength from, and that will hold us up in prayer.
Boy, this falls into the catagory of "Practice What You Preach"....
At least I am the past I would have cut my losses everywhere....quit stuff, written people off....basically, punished myself and everyone else around me. I am not going there...but I do know enough that I need to take a couple of days and get balanced....take care of myself and be gentle with my words to those around me till I can step out of the funk.
But the biggest thing is to spend time with my Saviour. One that loves me when I am far from that shows me grace.....and the One that teaches me what forgiveness truly is--forgiving myself and forgiving those I think have hurt me.
These are not fun journeys..... But I can honestly say, as much as I hate being here, I can see where I have grown, I have learned from past mistakes, and I at least know what I am doing....
Sometimes it comes down to hearing in your head something so child like....simple truth....
Jesus loves me this I know.
For the Bible tells me so
Little ones to Him belong
They are weak,
But He is strong.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus loves me.
Yes, Jesus love me...
the Bible tells me so.

A simple act of faith.....based on the truth that I am loved....propels me step at a time.

Monday, April 24, 2006

Prom Time????

It is so hard for me to watch this year fly by. All the things I thought I would have accomplished by this time....well, some haven't even gotten on the "to do" list yet!!!
But as I watched my son get ready for his Senior Prom this weekend, I didn't feel the "sadness" I thought I would at this being his Senior year and so many "last times" are coming and going. Instead, I am so excited for him. There are things that I am struggling to get throughI to him about the importance of his grades and such.....but there are other things that he has truly "gotten" to the core.
He has wonderful friends....I am so proud of the people he has surrounded himself with--having such a steady, "healthy" group of friends has allowed him to bypass many of the obstacles that he could have fallen for.
Now my friends...just be sure to remind me of all these things as I get ready to send him to college in the Fall. That is if I can get him to finish the applications and so forth!!!! AAARRRGG!